Friday, May 14, 2010
Hello dear readers,
I have moved to another website(:
Those who wish to read the new blog, feel free to ask me personally(:
So long love.
Just keep smiling.
2:58 AM
Monday, May 10, 2010
I WISH I COULD GO SOMEWHERE FAR AND START A NEW LIFE.
The weather has been exceedingly humid I could hardly take it.
I wish it wouldn't be this complicated. I wish it didn't happen in the middle of the examination.
I wish nothing gets in the way.
I wish things could be different.
If only I could straighten out the strangled issue, I'd be the calmest person in the world. Those words hit me head-on. It's just so..... painful.
Dear Allah, please give me the strength, for You're the most Powerful and the most Understanding.
Just keep smiling.
11:39 PM
Saturday, May 8, 2010
It's just so odd when you find yourself thinking of what you never thought you would. Or finding your body moving towards something without your permission. Or saying something you never expected you would. Reminiscence. It contains a very implicit meaning you never knew it was.
It's just so weird at times when you wish you were indifferent, but the heart is effortlessly still breaking. Infuriating, but beyond control, isn't it? A fact is a fact. You just can't deny.
But isn't it ironic, when you miss someone you detest the most? These confusions are really puzzling.
I can just imagine the panic and dread everyone feels now. In fact it's gradually eating up every ounce of cell in my body. Something I should stop.
It's completely dull to stay at home and doing nothing productive. That is the best time where I will get all pessimistic about every single meeny thing, which is knowingly very unhealthy. I just gotta stop this. Gotta keep myself busy. Gotta do something..
Well, I wasn't exactly doing nothing at home. I had practically more than 3/4 of the morning spent in the library all alone, which is something pleasing. The silence in the library was so loud I could hardly hear anything. Everyone was busy doing their work, focusing so well which intrigued me on their abilities of concentrating. I wish I had that. It took me about 20 mins to actually make myself understand what I was revising about. Before I forget, I was late for library for only 10 mins and all seats were taken up. How irritably annoying is that? -_-
I realised time has really pass so fast I barely could keep track of. I felt nothing, but everything. Does that makes sense?
Well, keep those aside. I stayed in the library for about... 3 plus hours? Then went to meet Rena and Ash for lunch. And we had a really animated conversation about what, the government again! Haha. I had no idea how our conversation had led to that topic but seriouslyyy, just talking about it made us all burn up inside. Haha.
And after eating chicken rice, we moved on to MacD's to buy Double choc, which I had last was last year? Been months I drank one! And I had it for freeeeee! I suppose. Hahaha. There were certain parts we laughed in gusto. It was hilarious. Sadly I had to go home first, at about 4 plus since I'm going to have tution today. And my tutor's sleeping over! I believe that helps ;)
Gotta dash now. So long ~
Just keep smiling.
3:13 AM
Friday, May 7, 2010
Greetings with pleasure, to the cycle of exasperating, dreading, aggravating, silent never-ending reminders to study. You just have to prepare for the worse. I'm obviously looking forward to the end of this MYE, but apparently there're bigger upcoming examinations. My reaction, was priceless the moment Aliah reminded me about Malay Olevels which is in 2 weeks' time after MYE. Can you believe that? You just gotta strive ~
I haven't had proper meals, neither do I have sufficient rest. You know what you should expect of how I look. I have been doubting my own capabilities and abilities just a few seconds ago and I'm here, back to filling healthy thoughts to myself. I reckon I may not be able to do well for maths and science's for this mid-year, when I'm
supposed to score for them. Amusingly I had much confidence for humanities and languages. But I'm not trying to say I will score for it -_- I just hope i'll get at least a B for each of them. Amin.
And Amaths today was unexpectedly manageable. If I have studied more, I know I wouldn't have much worries after the paper. I practically slept 3/4 of the day before Amaths paper, which was yesterday. I had a hard time forcing myself to get myself on the books, God knows how. It was some tough shit. It seemed more like a battle to me. Come to think of it, it's no use crying over something that you know you still gotta face. Well, the fact that it's a way of comfort is completely undeniable, but depends on the situation. Every time the laziness got the better of me, it's like as though I could still have the guts to mute myself doing nothing when the world is still revolving. I nearly drove myself to the brink of insanity. But I'm glad I reacted fast before something worse hit me. Thanks to Allah. All praises to Him.
I could barely open my eyes now. Probably going out tomorrow to study. ^^
I might be creating a wordpress account and closing this blog.
Maybe.
All the best to MYE.
Just keep smiling.
7:04 AM
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
I tell myself, that I can.
Because I know I can.
Despite whatever it is, I shall strive hard.
Things may get in the way.
But the world is moving.
I can't possibly do nothing.
Because I've to move along with the world.
And I know I can.
If I fall, I'll tell myself to stand instantly and not to whine over the pain.
I tell myself, just do it.
I feel so contented having friends around me who never fail to encourage me.
I love you yguys, more than you can imagine.
Just keep smiling.
1:08 AM
Friday, April 30, 2010
In life, some things just can't be explained.
If only I could write 'i'm thankful of what i'm given' a thousand times, I would, to the extent that I will cry about how grateful I am to have all that have been in my possession..
I may have lost someone, who brought a huge impact in my life, who brought colours to my life, whom has been the reason why I've always smiled. But at the same time, also the one who ruined everything.
By crying, I find it the greatest comfort to make myself feel better. But one thing I realise about myself these days, each time i'm on the brink of tears, I tell myself not to. And... it's something I have achieved!(:
But thanks a million friends, for being there for me. I can never thank you guys enough. You matter to me more than you know.
Wish me the best for exams:)
Just keep smiling.
7:57 AM
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Someone : Dhaniah, is it true that you've heart problem?
Me : Haha, it's not heart problem. It's asthma.
Someone : Huh?! Asthma? Serious?
Me : Yes... why?
Someone : But you don't look like you're sick!
Me : Haha, why would I wana show people that I'm sick? You gotta smile everyday! Like me! *fat grins* Hehehehhe.
Lol. Do I necessarily have to show that I'm sick? Haha. Yeah, many people said that I always look okay when I'm actually sick. Till people might think i'm lying. Lol ~ Suke hati la, asalkan korang bahagia. As long as I know I'm not lying, it's okay with me. Whatever assumptions you have, gasak kau la. Haahahhahaha.
Just know that Allah knows best.
By the way, I had an asthma attack yesterday. Was sent home straight. I'm glad I did. Well, guess I shall not elaborate on it(:
I miss percussion. I really do :( I tell myself I'm going to come back even though I have to stand down to look after the sec1s. I miss them terribly and I need to boost their courage and determination for percussion. Otherwise, the standard will drop, which obviously is something I fear of.
I miss them. I hope they still remember me. Hahahaha. They have already a place in my heart, and I care for every single one of them.
okay,save the tears dhaniah.
I don't wana talk about today.
Exams have already arrived. So most probably, I won't be able to blog as often at the moment because I need to start mugging like
now. But I may be blogging as and when during the examination if there's a need for me to pour out something.
So long loves ~
Must miss me(:
p.s :
i kinda lost my voice a little.. :(You always gotta remain happy despite whatever happens to you. That is living life to the fullest! :)
Just keep smiling.
4:24 AM
